[link] is where i update, (very rarely) post new artwork, and generally can be found/contacted. although i doubt that anyone checks up on this old junk dA anyway.

life is good. i am failing in honors precalc and ap physics. for the first time in my life, i feel frustrated and like a failure at school. my other classes i am doing excellently in. it's just stressful to suddenly be in a class that i can't just immediately understand by watching in class and doing some classwork.

my SAT scores come back this thursday. and 5 of Ari's college letters come that day, too.

speaking of, did i mention i have a boyfriend now?

he sings and plays piano with me. he is an excellent stage actor, he's a super nerd as he is valedictorian, and he's a jew. when i poke his stomach he tells me to stop punching his jabs, and then refers to his jew body parts, like his jabs and his jingers and his jenis and then i get really mad at him because he's being ridiculously silly. he's in love with bruce springsteen and has man crushes on so many people, but it includes gene kelly so i can't really blame him. neither of us really sleep at night but he's a lot sleepier than me so i let him take naps on my shoulder or my lap. he has a lead role in our school musical, and i help him get undressed and into his crossdressing costume of a white dress and long black wig backstage. it's awful because he kisses another guy, and is generally sexually harassed or abused for the whole show, and it was recognized that he's probably the most sexually abused student at school anyway. he has a pretty bad sense of direction, but so do i. we're both the most indecisive people ever in the world ever ever. and sometimes we come into school wearing perfectly matching outfits on accident and it's really awkward. he's polite and he's hilarious and he makes me feel happy and he smells nice.

i've written a couple of songs. i wish i could be churning out music all of the time, but it's extremely difficult. i should be practicing my music reading skills anyhow.
i've painted with oil colors for the first time this year. it was fun.

i want to apply for a job. i'd like the money and i'd like to actually get off my ass and work. even if it means less free time. i know that even if i had the free time, it would be wasted doing nothing. like so.

i love my friends and i can't wait for school to be over so that they can come home and we can all hang out again.

i'm sure there's tons of stuff that i'm missing but i've currently ran out of things to say.

in short, i am well. life is not amazingly euphoric, but it's far from the pits of hell, i'll tell you that.